I went home for the 4th. Stayed with Grandma and Moma. It was nice. Homesickness hit hard tough.
Things are ok.
OH...watched Pirates of the Caribbean last nite. It was good. And as usually, me and Will snuck in a pint of booze to slip into our drinks. Good times.
We've been if-y. But I'm trying to work things out. When I start to go into bitch-mode I try to fix it by going somewhere and walking or something. I think I've lost 10 pounds. haha... I'm serious unfortunaly.
After going home, I noticed all the times I've been shitty at Will was becuase I was jelous. Jelous of Will and his family.
I miss mine.
UPDATE.....................................................................................................
Well, I got my point across today when I came home for lunch. (or at least I tried)
Him and a neighbor had one of my mirrors off my wall with a big hunk of coke on it. He knows how I feel about it in the apartment. and how I don't really care about him doing it. Look....I'm not a saint. I used to do it, too. Did it with him. I don't care for it anymore. At all. I wished the damn boy would grow up. So......I walked up to the mirror and throw the mirror and the coke on it, breaking it on the kitchen floor. He sure as hell didn't see that coming and I yelled at the neighbor to "get the fuck out" and Will was all like, "you owe him money" and I said " I don't owe anyone shit..." and I told Will he needed to get out and go back to his mom. (he's 31) I like her, but she wipes his ass everytime he shits.
Man...you know what?. It actually felt like a breath of fresh air to me when I did that. So I guess I did right. he's all trying to tell me I'm "old" and " no fun" and "prude". Am I?
Well, I'm waiting to see what the after effects will be. He's not home now. I'm sure he's out with some friend getting fucked up.
Man, what did I see in him ... It's too bad. He's ruining a good thing. ....
it gets hard sometime.
Things are ok.
OH...watched Pirates of the Caribbean last nite. It was good. And as usually, me and Will snuck in a pint of booze to slip into our drinks. Good times.
We've been if-y. But I'm trying to work things out. When I start to go into bitch-mode I try to fix it by going somewhere and walking or something. I think I've lost 10 pounds. haha... I'm serious unfortunaly.
After going home, I noticed all the times I've been shitty at Will was becuase I was jelous. Jelous of Will and his family.
I miss mine.
UPDATE.....................................................................................................
Well, I got my point across today when I came home for lunch. (or at least I tried)
Him and a neighbor had one of my mirrors off my wall with a big hunk of coke on it. He knows how I feel about it in the apartment. and how I don't really care about him doing it. Look....I'm not a saint. I used to do it, too. Did it with him. I don't care for it anymore. At all. I wished the damn boy would grow up. So......I walked up to the mirror and throw the mirror and the coke on it, breaking it on the kitchen floor. He sure as hell didn't see that coming and I yelled at the neighbor to "get the fuck out" and Will was all like, "you owe him money" and I said " I don't owe anyone shit..." and I told Will he needed to get out and go back to his mom. (he's 31) I like her, but she wipes his ass everytime he shits.
Man...you know what?. It actually felt like a breath of fresh air to me when I did that. So I guess I did right. he's all trying to tell me I'm "old" and " no fun" and "prude". Am I?
Well, I'm waiting to see what the after effects will be. He's not home now. I'm sure he's out with some friend getting fucked up.
Man, what did I see in him ... It's too bad. He's ruining a good thing. ....
it gets hard sometime.
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cureelise:
comments like are what I like. should be writing more later on or tomorrow . it took me forever to write last night since well I had to take a couple of needed breaks. 
comments like are what I like. should be writing more later on or tomorrow . it took me forever to write last night since well I had to take a couple of needed breaks. 
starstruk:
Dont mean to break into the situation...but I know how you feel. As you get older...you have to really grow up. Im dealing with that shit with my bf right now. Skipping out on work to get high...Im not trying to sound like a 'prude' ...but theres a time for that shit..you know? 