All god fearing citizens need something to believe in. Try not to sail through life like an antibiotic. Things can't always be fixed that way.
We're in some kind of zoo. Green grass, waves.. sea like.. Feels like rubber without flipflops. A toilet with blue tiles, and matt silver doors - a mirror, dictaphone goes on (i forget after two seconds its on).. "oh I do look like some emo skater kid..look at my ass... its just out.. It jus HANGS out!"..There were no people in the toilet thankfully. I'm told I look crazy, Like some mental instiution escapee. We walk up and down a ten foot piece of tarmac for about 20 minutes, standing, staring aimlessly before i collapse onto a rock. we fall down a slope to a bench and realise - we would probably sit beside the bench..not on it (after the grass/mud incident). Then there is the girl with two balls. And the woman whom look like a sealion with the bear like dog.
Standing outside a shop in the pouring sunshine, giggling because neither of us dare to go in for finding everything funny. Making a spectacle, a shiney glass porthole of ourselves because all the colours have become fifteen times brighter. "TRY TO ACT NORMAL" she hollars at me.. whilst i walk quietly. "Yeh.. saying that helps us to be normal when a person walks past". Another shop.. we linger.. we brace.. A quick zipin zipout mission.. I spot pick'n'mix.. I dive.. I think "I must count this".. (one second) I forget and I hand my bag of sweets over to the Indian man and he looks at me as if to ask - how much.. and I say abrasively "oh.. I didn't count it". She cracks and walks out of the shop. As we both leave he follows us out and watches us walk up the hill giggling and fretting about the state of ourselves for a meal we must attend in an hour and a half.
I look much better when I smile. Alive. Less like some worried eyed puppet.
Just an inordinary saturday.
Clare (Left) (face looks funny? irish) 2004.
God help you if you were an ugly girl,
close to pretty is also your doom;
coz everyone harbours a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room.
I'm so difficult.
We're in some kind of zoo. Green grass, waves.. sea like.. Feels like rubber without flipflops. A toilet with blue tiles, and matt silver doors - a mirror, dictaphone goes on (i forget after two seconds its on).. "oh I do look like some emo skater kid..look at my ass... its just out.. It jus HANGS out!"..There were no people in the toilet thankfully. I'm told I look crazy, Like some mental instiution escapee. We walk up and down a ten foot piece of tarmac for about 20 minutes, standing, staring aimlessly before i collapse onto a rock. we fall down a slope to a bench and realise - we would probably sit beside the bench..not on it (after the grass/mud incident). Then there is the girl with two balls. And the woman whom look like a sealion with the bear like dog.
Standing outside a shop in the pouring sunshine, giggling because neither of us dare to go in for finding everything funny. Making a spectacle, a shiney glass porthole of ourselves because all the colours have become fifteen times brighter. "TRY TO ACT NORMAL" she hollars at me.. whilst i walk quietly. "Yeh.. saying that helps us to be normal when a person walks past". Another shop.. we linger.. we brace.. A quick zipin zipout mission.. I spot pick'n'mix.. I dive.. I think "I must count this".. (one second) I forget and I hand my bag of sweets over to the Indian man and he looks at me as if to ask - how much.. and I say abrasively "oh.. I didn't count it". She cracks and walks out of the shop. As we both leave he follows us out and watches us walk up the hill giggling and fretting about the state of ourselves for a meal we must attend in an hour and a half.
I look much better when I smile. Alive. Less like some worried eyed puppet.
Just an inordinary saturday.
Clare (Left) (face looks funny? irish) 2004.
God help you if you were an ugly girl,
close to pretty is also your doom;
coz everyone harbours a secret hatred
for the prettiest girl in the room.
I'm so difficult.
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fatality:
I like your profile picture.
andy_hallam:
Nice picture of your feet by the way 