kickinglovers

Let me in your arms to feel.


I'm a jerk. Compelled by the mortality of impulse behaviour. I am spinning on the point of wanking jerkness; and not in a sexual sense. I jus feel like my behaviour is pointless right now. I am angry with people who have done nothing towards me. My heart is beating in an awkward metre of lifeless rhythm. I don't want to lose you over my feeling like a complete dickweed. Nor my ability to fall asleep when you want my attention.. *averting eyes*.

I miss starfish. Like i would miss my favourite pants if they went missing, which infact they did once. My car pants.. and then I found them in my duffle coat pocket... I have no idea. I'm no slutwhore though.

I slept for four hours since you left me on my own, I had strange dreams - always happens when I'm too hot when I sleep.

For the record. This morning when Starfish woke, she was the cutest sleepiness I have ever seen. But it made me sad, we didn't sleep like we usually do. That was the first thing i thought of, after 'why the fuck do i keep waking myself up, and why cant i breathe'.