khorsaun

I've always been kinda antisocial for some reason. I'm not sure why. I'm a little shy at first, but once you get to know me, I open up real quick. Sometimes too much, HAHAHAHA.

I guess it's because I was the "Omega Wolf" as a youngster.

For those of you unfamiliar with the "Omega Wolf" theory, it's related to the "Alpha Wolf" and "Beta Wolf" social heirarchy amongst wolf packs in the wild. Whereas the "Alpha Wolf" is the topmost and most dominant wolf in the pack, the "Omega Wolf" is just the opposite, yet he/she still fulfills a role in the pack. The "Omega Wolf" is the one member of the pack that all of the others "pick on" and humiliate, thereby relieving most of the stress on the whole pack in hard times. The "Omega Wolf" is also the one member of the pack that any other member can beat down to highten their own importance. Still the "Omega Wolf" stays with the pack for survival and the need for social surroundings. Yet some "Omega Wolves" can't take the pressure and leave the pack and try to fend for themselves on their own. This is where the term "Lone Wolf" comes from.

Where was I? I hate it when I get to talking about something and then totally lose my place...oh yeah...

As a child I was always the "Omega Wolf", the butt of everyones jokes, the social outcast...even among the other so-called "outcasts". Those "outcasts" don't know what it's really like to be outcast, fuckin' posers...went off on a rant again, hehehehe.
I finally got to the point where I'd rather not be a part of the group, and be an outcast, than to put up with the ridicule any longer, and be the "Lone Wolf" (I hate to use that phrase as it has a "coolness" associated with it that I can't lay claim to).

Then came High School! Oy Vey!! Talk about social separation!

Now I was the outcast for several groups instead of just one. But it was also there that made freinds...for the first time in a long time. I did'nt make many...just a very few...other outcasts like myself.
I guess that's why I have'nt been very social here yet...I count freinds as something very precious...and I don't make them lightly. But once I do, I am very loyal.

Holy Shit! I did'nt mean to write an entry this long! Damn! LOL Anyone reading this must think I'm some sorta psycho! Oh well! Who gives a shit, right?
For the VERY FEW of you who have read this...I thank you. And for those of you who have read this entry in it's entirety, DAMN! YOU'RE PERSISTENT!! HAHAHAHAHA! And "Thank you" to the TWO ppl who actually left me comments: Fatality & Reptilia

Hmmm......I think I'll do something to make myself more interesting....a weekly game or something like that....must think on this.....