kherpuppet

My, I just love being bipolar! (insert unnecessary sarcasm here). I think I've figured out why I haven't been to any SG PDX events yet. I'm getting tired of new people basing their first impression of me on an episode. Haven't been baseline enough in the past several months to do anything fun with new folks. Been out a few times to Noir and Sinferno, but nothing private. It'd be nice to finally meet some of the folks here...

I am glad I found my way to Portland, but it's been a long and educational process realizing this. I have to deal with a lot of things most people don't, and it obviously affects how I see the world. Never used to have a nightlife of any kind, and moving here allowed me to discover that. There's nothing in Humboldt, and my Bay Area life was severely restricted 'cause of how few people I really knew. Grew up there, but most of my friends moved away and I was in no position to meet new ones. Coming to Portland forced me to start over and make a new life for myself. If I hadn't lost two years from being (I suppose) inadvertently abused by the mental health system here, I'd be much further along and probably happier.

Still, I'm glad to have a chance to start over again. I've met some incredible people and am making good friends. Taking things slow out of necessity, but it's better that way, for me at least. The potential here for everything is amazing to me. Work, education, friends, love, growth, all is in one place for the first time in my life. Let's just hope I can do something with the opportunities...

- gordon