kharnalbloodlust

so...i try to get the boy on my friends list (who is my regular friend-with-benefits boy) to come home with me and have sex with me (because he's in town and i'm horny).
but no. he refuses (actually, he looked kind of pained but he's unerringly polite, and didn't want to put out the other three people he was in indy with. especially since he wasn't driving and they were only in town for a few hours.)
he wouldn't even go out to the car with me so i could give him a (birthday) blowjob. (this was the most frustrating....i just wanted 15 minutes of his time if i couldn't take him home. i was drunk enough i was promising him ANYTHING he could ask for if i could just get him to go home with me for sex. but i can now also understand that he went to indy to listen to the music, which was what he was doing as i was trying to persuade him out to my car. so...he had a point.)
fucker. (i was angry last night, can you tell?)
he sucks, and yet i want him so much. (and the silly boy always gets chased and never has to chase. that makes me sad. then again, i think i like him more than he likes me.)
grrrr.
i need to get laid (by one--or any combination thereof--of four people at this point--two of you are on my list, one of which is the boy i'm bitching about). grrr.

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p.s. i put up pics of my dinner party last night. it was great.