Wow, over a month without updating, bad K!
I am barely alive, I'm still ill from the lovely new students at my uni, and not getting better in a hurry.
My dissertation is still scary (scarier in fact) and has been responsible for some major fireworks for me today. I thiught a lot of the problems I had about starting work, perfectionism and procrastination had dissolved over this summer with the amazing experiences I had in Italy, but sadly they have returned with a vengeance and bit me on the ass.
It's left me feeling a bit wild and uncontrolled. I hate that feeling- I posted a poem about it a while ago. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with the idea that it will come back from time to time and that I need to get through it.
I'm also concerned about starting the PhD- if finishing my dissertation is this much of a struggle is it really the sane thing to do to let myself in for all the extra stress? Why is it easier to put myself through hell than to just get on with work that I know needs to be done?
Still, if this summer taught me anything it's that you HAVE to take the chances you are thrown... just gotta figure out how
MarkR1- the otters did indeed rock. I don't have my own photos but here is the url:
otters!
the polecats were especially cute, as they were all sleeping in a big sack. I want a pet ferret!
Northern: I'm alive and well, just having issues again
I'll try not to let it be a month again!
K
I am barely alive, I'm still ill from the lovely new students at my uni, and not getting better in a hurry.
My dissertation is still scary (scarier in fact) and has been responsible for some major fireworks for me today. I thiught a lot of the problems I had about starting work, perfectionism and procrastination had dissolved over this summer with the amazing experiences I had in Italy, but sadly they have returned with a vengeance and bit me on the ass.
It's left me feeling a bit wild and uncontrolled. I hate that feeling- I posted a poem about it a while ago. I guess I'm just going to have to deal with the idea that it will come back from time to time and that I need to get through it.
I'm also concerned about starting the PhD- if finishing my dissertation is this much of a struggle is it really the sane thing to do to let myself in for all the extra stress? Why is it easier to put myself through hell than to just get on with work that I know needs to be done?
Still, if this summer taught me anything it's that you HAVE to take the chances you are thrown... just gotta figure out how
MarkR1- the otters did indeed rock. I don't have my own photos but here is the url:
otters!
the polecats were especially cute, as they were all sleeping in a big sack. I want a pet ferret!
Northern: I'm alive and well, just having issues again
I'll try not to let it be a month again!
K
Sorry your dissertation is scary and getting you down. I don't know what to suggest, since my perfectionism and procrastination always made me simply drop out without doing major work. Please don't give up that easily!
I really hope you can get out of this hole and get the work done. I'm sure it'll be worth the effort and agony.