kg

i was supposed to go to the disney meet and greet yesterday night; i was ready, i drove to downtown disney, and i walked right up to the uva bar, but then i starting having a panic attack. i have this tendency to get nervous when meeting new people, especially in large groups. i felt claustrophobic. instead of making myself awkward, i walked around downtown disney for a little while to clear my head and stopped to watch a guy play violin. it calmed me down so much i was considering going back to the uva bar, but as soon as i walked past it again i couldn't do it.

instead i got into my car, went to a bookstore, and bought some classic literature. i went back home, put on the most calming playlist i have, read nabokov and had a good conversation or two with friends who helped me get back into a standard state of content.

i'm really sorry for bailing on you guys, but i hear you had a great time without me anyways. i'd rather meet you all in small groups than everyone at once, but that's just me and my nervous heart. maybe next time, guys. sorry.

always,
-k.