kezai

ooooooh

its been a while since ive written had a lot on really, a week or more of hills and valleys. It's tough to say the least. ive been job hunting, a lot, as bein broke is not at all condusive to my lifestyle

however, so i got a couple of interviews, and i even got offered a position in one of them, but it was only on performance based salary, in other words, if you dont sell anything then u dont get paid :'( which when i told my folks, they were like "Hell No!" they are completely opposed to me doing this job.

which when i look at this job and what it entails i can see their point, plus id have to take out my piercings and cover my tattoos, which is the last thing that i want to do, im just not ready to give up that part of my personality. i dont see why i should have to. all i have to do is tell them i dont want the job grrrrr

the thing is the few days before all of this i was really positive! all about the good vibes and positive energy, but then it juat seemed to crumble somewhere along the way bad times. so this all transpired with the job and the parents last friday, and in typical me fashion i decided to go out after work saturday night and truly fuck myself up i think i need to lay off the acid for a little bit, i was insane fun and afterwards i was wasted well into sunday, but maybe not soooo much of it next time lol, my mind got on a bus, to get on a plane to fly away for a good lot of hours lol messy biscuits!

in other news, the boy is loverly he feeds me lots lol, trying to fatten me up i think lol but the diet starts tomorrow, ive gotta cut out all the junk ive been eating

so...... im still trying to stay positive on the job front, everyone keeps telling me that something will come up and that somethings going to happen and its only a matter of time lol, i wish i could believe them :/ im a positive person, so when shizzle like this is getting me down, u kno its gotta b getting tough

send me the positive energy peeps!
love and light!
xx