Not your typical blog post I suppose.

Unless you consider the last one...lol, shit, I hope not.

I'm not taking away the truth behind the message...ie: I wished everyone a Happy Holidays Season...I meant it.

No, this one is an update, which I haven't done in so long really.

Most of you know what's been going on in my life over the past several years...Lymphoma.

From May 2017 through May of 2018, I was taking Imbruvica 490 mg. A year I was on this poison, it worked but because my insurance wanted 3,650$ to continue...I was like "fuck off! Who has that kind of money???"

You all know I'm working as a stock person at a Wally World, my dental insurance is awesome, my vision insurance is also a positive but Aetna's medical is terrible. I know I shouldn't complain, shit I have insurance. I also had to have my hours reduced to 3 days (from 40 hours a week to 24 hours per week, ouch). That stems from my spinal damage and lower back problems) now. Ugh...when It rains it pours I guess.

There are tens of thousands of American's if not more without it. It's heartbreaking to say the least.

Basically this update is to let all of those SG's/Hopefuls/Members that know of my condition and the length of time I've been fighting this shit. I've never, EVER had the second thought of giving up...that never crossed my mind.

Since I originally joined in 2004, I've met some of the most incredible people, the most thoughtful, kind, decent and caring women and men whom proved time and again that my being a middle-aged male has no bearing on whom I am.

To all of you who've messaged me with concern...thank you so much. Love yas bunches!!! ❤❤❤😚😚

Most of you also know I'm an artist, born and raised. I could draw before I could walk, I see the world differentlythan most. I've mentioned that I had done shoots in the past for my art. I love doing it, it's not just a hobby, it's a passion I take very seriously. I am a professional artist, yeah I've been out of the loop for many years but I'm learning all this DSLR shit.

I'm getting back into it again. It's what I was always meant to do. Since I saw Earl Morans art/photographs of Marilyn Monroe from the mid to late 40's, I fell in love with it. Gil Elvgren's art pushed me over the edge.

I would give anything to someday work with a Hopeful, Suicide Girl on a set. I believe it would help me immensely.

Having this on my resume is a serious plus. Not only that it would also show my talents.

Of course I have to beat this shit that's trying to kill me. Not going for pity mind you, just truth.

Hence why I've changed my profile picture, to basically raise awareness of the illness but to also say I'm not a quitter and it will NOT win.

I have a biopsy on the 2nd of July. I should start the chemotherapy cycle sometime before the 21st of July.

I'm not trying to get pity...fuck no. I just want understanding. Also to explain why I've not posted that much in a while. I look nothing like the beardy pics anymore. The lymph nodes in my cheeks and jawline have increased in size by 29%.

I know, not good.

I did want to mention, as I always do how great, beautiful, brilliant and fantastic all of my friends are and how incredibly beautiful, sexy, sensual, cute, gorgeous that all of the sets have been these past several months. This goes to everyone who follows me and to the one's who do not. You are ALL incredible human beings. Thank you for your support and of course I will be posting blogs on my progress. The cycle will last from July through January of next year.

I also included a link to my GoFundMe account to raise money to help me with my medications, to and from the sessions, the blood work, paying some co-pays and general assistance if something suprising comes up.

No one has to feel as though they should, follower or not. I'm just putting here to show where I'm at.

Funny though, I'm estimated to begin chemotherapy just two days prior to my 49th birthday.

I'm going to celebrate big time with a little early birthday party. I wish all my followers could come.

Take care my friends, I promise to keep in great spirits through all of this.

❤❤❤😚😚😚🍺

gofundme.com/f/e472f-medical-expenses&rcid=r01-156129103048-9b22ff842ab04cf4&pc=ot_co_campmgmt_m

It's a copy and paste thing. Sorry.