FIrst i wanted to say that in the world of social media, SG is my home away from home. It is. I'm not even on FB, Instagram, Twitter or any place else (for that matter) as much as i am here. Since i first joined in August 2004 (as kel72470) I've met and friended many people, mostly women of course (i feel more comfortable expressing my life, feelings and the like to the opposite sex) since i absolutely adore women. Age, height, weight, hair, eye colour, breast size, mother tongue etc. means absolutely squat to me...what matters is the quality of the people here, definitely NOT the quantity. Most that know me know I'm not a bar fly, party animal and even get down on my looks.
Secondly, my blood work came out as normal!!! 😊 Now that's awesome, really. However, i still need chemotherapy in form of a pill named Imbruvica..it's a pill that once you take it, you will always take it...forever. I've never mentioned this before but after my last chemotherapy session in '14, i found out that i can not and shouldn't even try to father children. Shit that hit me like a ton of bricks in the face...see I'm bashing my appearance again...it's a habit. It basically ripped my heart out 💔 Even though i wasn't in a major hurry, i still thought i would be a dad someday...nope. 😢😭. Something else on a personal note...since 2014 I've been through bouts of a man problem. Let's just say that the flag only get up to a quarter mast regularly, i do wake up on occasion with one (I'm sure you've guessed what the prob is by now. Now, i know it's not really whom i am but dear God, i never felt less of a man than when this happens. 😢 I always thought of myself as masculine...but.
A special shout out to @marlene, who's been supportive all the way from across the Atlantic...thanks Angel. 😙 As a matter of fact 99% of you have been so damn incredible to me and to be honest i really don't think i deserve this much support, I've not been around so much lately and i apologize, just been feeling a we bit sorry for myself. I realize that it's nothing i can't control and need to get back up on my feet and deal with it. I don't even know how many friendships i actually have here. Not really no. Other than @marlene and a few others i really don't know. It would be nice to know how many really think of me as such.
Finally my art...i used to actually use other photographers pics for my pin up work...but since 98 I've been taking my own, this way from start to finish, it's my work, not just a copy. There are many Hopefuls/Newbies and even Suicide Girls who have shown interest in allowing me to work with them...that's so incredible a feeling to feel that my art is important not just to me but to beautiful and incredible women...it's an honour to be considered. I don't shoot nudes...except for my personal figure studies (practice makes perfect, the female figure is a work of art in itself), however i would love the opportunity to shoot a set for this amazing site. I've many favourite photogs here, @alissa is not only a beautiful person/SG but talented. 😙 But to someday be in the same likes as her and a few dozen others...well wow!
In closing i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who took the time to read this long, proper and I'm sure boring (compared to others) blog.
Love you all 😙😙😙❤❤❤
