kevinmaxwell

Sorryfor the lack of posts my friends, lack of energy, time and the ability to pull some of magically here. I am still fighting my way out of what seems to be a lose-lose battle with my illness. I finally lost my eyebrows, hair on my scrotum, even my eyelashes are flling out now (let alone I have the chest of a somewhat flat-chested girl with only a few hairs , here and there. So I am not feeling like a man, I feel like less of one. I haven't (before I here TMI) had sex in a long time...4 years. I do miss it. Even though my sexual energy comes and goes (but mostly is gone at this point) I still wish I had someone to cuddle with on on those rare periods my muscles dont ache or my headache finally absolves completely, I would love to feel the touch of a young woman, have her carress my (almost) bare chest, to press her breasts against my skin, to take in her scent, to breathe it imto my soul. To gently lick her lips with my tongue and taste her chin, neck and ears and to know tha=t she really feels that I am truly sexy enough. The way I have been feeling sex is out of the picture and I don't know when it will ever, if ever it will return. I just feel less of a man without sex. I love to please women (more I think than most men want to worldwide. I am not the greatest catch but I do have a heart, passion and as I said i do have the urge to merge on occasion.

Cuddling is far too inmportant, to wake up in the morning and hold her in my arms, see her smile knowing that I made her happy by just holding her all night.

Am I going nuts? I wish this cheno would stop becasue the more I do it it feels like my manhood will wither away and die...and so will I.