ok, gretel's profile totally reminded me of this poem. the last 2 lines always punch me in the stomach (in a good way).
NOT WAVING BUT DROWNING
by Stevie Smith
Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.
Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead...
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NOT WAVING BUT DROWNING
by Stevie Smith
Nobody heard him, the dead man,
But still he lay moaning:
I was much further out than you thought
And not waving but drowning.
Poor chap, he always loved larking
And now he's dead...
Read More
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i've decided that today is tomorrow. as in: i'll start tomorrow. the Annie Dillard quote that always makes me shudder b/c of how right-on it is: HOW WE SPEND OUR DAYS IS HOW WE SPEND OUR LIVES. 'ulp. and: yes.
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kore:
i love axl too. with all my heart. i want to see slash, duff and axl back together where they belong. 
and i like you. you rock.
and i like you. you rock.
kathrynn:
Well, then we should only spend one day tearing up Grandma's house! (I'm referring to Annie Dilard's quote.)
We should talk about your ideas for the shoot before Saturday -- I may have interesting props I can bring... It sounds like Zoe can't come, but she says you're fine with doing your own makeup. I'm psyched!!
We should talk about your ideas for the shoot before Saturday -- I may have interesting props I can bring... It sounds like Zoe can't come, but she says you're fine with doing your own makeup. I'm psyched!!
"Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew her
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah"
you know this leonard cohen song? a lot of people (including the dresden dolls) cover it, and every single...
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You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew her
She tied you
To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah"
you know this leonard cohen song? a lot of people (including the dresden dolls) cover it, and every single...
Read More
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kenyon:
thank you i'll have to check out the jeff buckley situation apparently . . . thanks for the heads-up! i'm gonna cry me a river.
i'll have to check out the jeff buckley situation apparently . . . thanks for the heads-up! i'm gonna cry me a river.
blyss:
Oh god! I love that song so much, I can't even tell you!
Hurray for our birthday, hurray for being Pisces'!!
xoxo
Blyssfull
Hurray for our birthday, hurray for being Pisces'!!
xoxo
Blyssfull
my first journal entry! and all because i'm so excited that Wednesday has a new set out! i knew there was a reason i popped out of bed at 3:30 am to randomly troll the internet. fuck yeah for nymph-ing around with horses and quivers and for appearing so fucking beautiful yet unassuming. goodnight.
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kenyon:
i think i'm having some kind of nihilistic moment (long moment). nothing seems solid, yo. i've probably just read too much about quantum theory. put another way: not much seems worthwhile, although it doesn't seem UNimportant, either. like: i'm working on a novel. suddenly, although i still love the characters and everything, i could conceive of simply not finishing it. which is weird for me, being a former perfectionist/ overachiever. where'd my impetus go? i want it back. i think . . .
kenyon:
awesome. seing Amina's GORGEOUS, killer set today somehow makes me feel less weird about shooting a set. even though my disability is "invisible" it's very fucking real. it's alienating to act all perky and eyelash-batting for the camera or onstage (the latter not a possibility any more) when i'm so sick, and have dudes tell me how hot i'm looking, when it all feels so alienating and like so much of an act. if they could just see me with no makeup, in bed for months, my hair all unwashed, emaciated, etc . . . perhaps this is too graphic or dramatic for a public forum, but i'm feeling emboldened by Amina's set, and besides, who really reads this journal anyway? so yeah, it's cool. and the thing is (oh god, i feel a pop psych summation coming on), we all have our things that are weird but we mostly don't talk about.
i did a performance piece a few years back when i was stronger where i stripped behind a lit sheet while a pre-recorded monologue played and my friend erin sang. it was all about the intersection between eroticism and disability, how funny situations can arise and how impromptu measures sometimes need to be taken (during sex, for example), and how ultimately we're all just as sexy as we are, no matter what shit is going down in our life. it felt good to do that performance, to get it out there. less alienating. xo.
(edited, as usual, for technical difficulties!)
[Edited on Sep 14, 2005 1:29PM]
i did a performance piece a few years back when i was stronger where i stripped behind a lit sheet while a pre-recorded monologue played and my friend erin sang. it was all about the intersection between eroticism and disability, how funny situations can arise and how impromptu measures sometimes need to be taken (during sex, for example), and how ultimately we're all just as sexy as we are, no matter what shit is going down in our life. it felt good to do that performance, to get it out there. less alienating. xo.
(edited, as usual, for technical difficulties!)
[Edited on Sep 14, 2005 1:29PM]
where shall we start my dear?..oh oh i am most giddy with excitement xxx
thanks for the lovely comment on my set, love