I completely sucked today. No energy. Fighting tears half the time. If this sort of thing went on constantly, I'd be on meds. But nooooo tomorrow I may be just fine.
I hate being so dependent on a woman's love. If there's a girl in my life, I'm fine. But alone, I feel worthless. On and off. Some days are good.
Today was not one...
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I hate being so dependent on a woman's love. If there's a girl in my life, I'm fine. But alone, I feel worthless. On and off. Some days are good.
Today was not one...
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Goddamnit! I put in the wrong tape to record Buffy! I put in last year's - the FULL ONE. While I was reading my children a bedtime story, Buffy was failing to save the precog from her fate and I MISSED IT!
Not to mention I got just about nothing done today. So much for entrepreneurism.
My ex-wife is visibly pregnant. I wonder when...
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Goddamnit! I put in the wrong tape to record Buffy! I put in last year's - the FULL ONE. While I was reading my children a bedtime story, Buffy was failing to save the precog from her fate and I MISSED IT!
Not to mention I got just about nothing done today. So much for entrepreneurism.
My ex-wife is visibly pregnant. I wonder when...
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Wow.
Trying to start a business. Spent all week talking to banks, getting sincere explanations for why they don't fund startups. I am very conservative financially (well aside from being a rabidly pro-choice atheist, I'm pretty conservative all around) and it's a very strange feeling for me *not* to be the most risk-averse person in the room. Learn something new every day.
So I schedule...
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Trying to start a business. Spent all week talking to banks, getting sincere explanations for why they don't fund startups. I am very conservative financially (well aside from being a rabidly pro-choice atheist, I'm pretty conservative all around) and it's a very strange feeling for me *not* to be the most risk-averse person in the room. Learn something new every day.
So I schedule...
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lila:
well thank you for the complement(s)...if you want to see more of me and my ass...you just might be in luck!!! i applied to be an SG, so keep your eyes open for new chicas.
<3 LiLA.
<3 LiLA.
I am: Straight, divorced male, 38, slender, have been described by persons not related by blood as handsome. Babyface - frequently mistaken for late 20's. Professional. Total atheist. An engineer. Smart, funny, good conversationalist, absolutely driven and critical. So polite, I am occasionally mistaken for gay. I have never consumed an illicit drug, or tobacco in any form. I drink socially infrequently.
I am into:...
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krazmo:
Are you still a SCAdian?
Shipped my first "mechanical sample" prototype last Saturday. Non-functional, but a marketing tool for my distributor to show prospective customers. Called him on Monday and told him not to use it - it looked like shit.
Thursday I managed a really good-looking one; it took 'way too long. Back to the drawing board on my adhesive system.
Firedanced tonight! My second time, ever. I've been...
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Thursday I managed a really good-looking one; it took 'way too long. Back to the drawing board on my adhesive system.
Firedanced tonight! My second time, ever. I've been...
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<Al Says: Do you ever find yourself hearing a song you've heard for years that you enjoy but never paid much attention to and all of a sudden you listen to the words and realize it's really fucked up? It's an odd experience.
I don't remember dreaming last night.>
kengineer said on Oct 01, 2002 10:23 AM
Specifics please, Al. What song, by who? You're...
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I don't remember dreaming last night.>
kengineer said on Oct 01, 2002 10:23 AM
Specifics please, Al. What song, by who? You're...
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solisis:
interested in your take on the subject of emotional fluxuation. do elaborate.
kengineer:
If your mood cycles every six months or so, its bipolar disorder. Lithium has brutal side effects, but it stabilizes your mood. If the ups and downs are every few days or weeks, it may be a food allergy, or simply "moodiness" defying definition as a medical condition. I was on antidepressants for 6 years - off for 7 now - I don't know that they saved my life, but I'm confident things would have been much, much worse without them.
With the lord as my witness (actually I'm an atheist but it makes a good interjection) I have no idea who is gay/bi/straight/sleeping with who/exclusive/poly. The bios are no help. The comment boards are no help. I'm an engineer, dammit, not a sociologist! I wish someone would just send me the spreadsheet. Or would that be a PowerPoint presentation? Well, Marie's pretty "out". When two...
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Thursday: Went to the Anniversary Party. Managed two faux pas on SG's. Smooth. Still, you can't make an omelette without getting some egg on your face . . .
And the bands totally rocked.
I am now officially in the game. Let the world tremble.
Friday: Skipped going to club to make my first prototype. Finished it at midnight. It looked like shit. My distributor...
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And the bands totally rocked.
I am now officially in the game. Let the world tremble.
Friday: Skipped going to club to make my first prototype. Finished it at midnight. It looked like shit. My distributor...
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penelope:
Yesh..bruises on the toes...fun though, really tons-of-fun. Drunk+no.pain.
wow...that was certainly a long night.
wow...that was certainly a long night.
penelope:
supposed to be
drunk=no.pain...
whatabadtypistiam
drunk=no.pain...
whatabadtypistiam
www.ebaumsworld.com
I remember meeting you at the party. In fact I wrote something afterwards about meeting a guy named Ken who was an engineer, therefore "kengineer", ha ha.
Thanks for your comment. You are right. Hey, if my psychiatrist person gives me some drugs, I'll share w/cha, he he.