kengineer

As near as I can tell, I am really hitting the wall on this no-girlfriend thing. I can see little (and not so little) boundary violations and bad judgment calls showing up, but only in hindsight. Suddenly I am remembering the cute local girl I met two years ago who was not-so-discreetly trolling for a fuck-buddy to keep her satisifed between her out-of-town boyfriend's visits. I completely blew her off then, but if I had her number now she would probably receive a "hey, how have you been?" phone call right about . . . now.

On the plus side, I have two get-acquainted coffees coming within the next week, and a tango date scheduled for around the 18th.

A lot of my problem is that work is grinding me into a stub, and has been for some time. I screwed up about two months ago and I think it has cost me about thirty hours of fix-your-mistake time since then. It gets pretty old when three hours of every day are spent working around the material you forgot to order, while still meeting shipping deadlines. When I get home from a day like that, I really want a friend to talk to on the phone, or even someone who can sneak over for dinner and a cuddle. Unfortunately, having lived my life by a strict code of emotional isolation and unrealistic expectations, those options are severly limited.

Gotta go now. I have a few phone calls to make.