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Friday Feb 18, 2005

Feb 18, 2005
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Well, I've sucessfully killed another week of my life. Not much to show for it as usual. I'm a bit dissappointed in myself for not getting a better job yet. My current gives me no creative outlet and pays very poorly.

This weekend I'm hoping to get some more done on my portfolios, both design and painting. I've decided to attack both fine and commercial art worlds. Somebody out there needs to pay me for my creative genius! Towards that end I need a decent online portfolio... and spare time to pound the pavement. Grrr.

I've decided to not renew another month's lessons at the kwoon. I got a CD with some Poon Kuen forms I was dying to learn while I was around. Think I'll get myself in shape, learn those forms, then go back for some fine-tuning of technique. I never mean to be a permanent ongoing student there again anyway, regardless of whether I can afford it in the future. Maybe I'll find a new sifu in the future. As we have all heard, when the student is ready the teacher will appear.

In other news, the rat fortress o' doom will be finished this weekend. I'll post a photo for you to see, Zelly. I've noticed that both of the kids have new lumps. The horror! Rats are lumpy people and it's expensive and problematic to remove them. Lucy's has turned out to be something approaching a large boil or abscess; she popped it yesterday while I was at work and now the poor dear has to put up with bandages. If it doesn't close on its own, I'll have to get the vet to stitch her. Luna has what I can only assume is a mammary tumor. They're benign but they get bigger as they are fed by hormones. Luna isn't spayed and I hesitate to take her in for either a lumpectomy or a spay because she's so wild. She's a biter and very high-strung... not bandageable at all. A quandry for certain.

As I'm reading this over, it doesn't seem as though my life has been very exciting or interesting lately. I'll have to do something about that.... wink
jordanos:
you just gotta find something to give you the drive you need. whether it be listening to music, taping electrodes to your nipples, or picturing me in a kilt on a very hot day. the key is to have it be something that either disturbs you or gives you power. then just keep it in your head.
Feb 18, 2005
waldo_jeffers:
I like the way you out it "killed another week of my life"!!! I sometimes feel that my life is one long slow journey towards the inevitable end, "The Awful Rowing Toward God" (to quote the title of a collection of poems by Anne Sexton).

So if you were to get a better job what kind of job would you get? What would be your ideal job and what job do you think you will actually end up with?

Good luck with your portfolios and with finding a new sifu when the time is right.

Sorry about your little whiskered friends and their lumpy bits. I hope they like their new playground!

Hey! Don't worry if life hasn't been very exciting lately. I think we have been conditioned to expect more and more and more out of life, so that we undervalue what we've got already. The great thing about keeping people disatisfied with themselves and their lives is that it prompts them to go out and spend money. Disatisfaction sells. It makes people buy flash cars, new shoes, cosmetics, exotic holidays, tickets to cinemas and exclusive nightclubs, tins of paint for redecorating house, self-help books, you name it! Just think how sales of all of these things would plummet if people stopped having ridiculously high expectations of their lives!! Post-modern life is like one long sleepless night spent trying to find things with which to fill the vacuum in one's soul. In truth what we all really need to is to find the still small voice of calm within us. Unfortunately, I still haven't found that still small voice of calm - what about you?

(Edited because, I can't spell "would" wink )

[Edited on Feb 20, 2005 10:49AM]
Feb 20, 2005

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