This week's blog homework means a lot to me.
In my life i have always come across like marmite, you either love or hate me. Its a gift and a curse all at once i believe.
Sometime's it's good because i have the guts to say what everyone else is thinking, other times its a curse because i don't like upsetting anyone i am a good person and generous just also quite blunt i think, definitely a British thing to have a dark sense of humour, a chip on your shoulder, be awfully good at queueing & well, be loved or hated haha.
This past year a lot has happened, i found out i had a personality disorder; by making it public only hoping to spread a good message, mental awareness & helping those with problems not so easy to fix or see. I had a great deal of backlash from it, people telling me i was a freak, that because of my disorder i could not be trusted and would always be a liar. This is just recently though backlash is something i have had my whole life. When i do wrong i hold my hands up and admit it, never been one to dig myself deeper into lies etc just isn't me but in school i was bullied, hard just for being honest and hardworking.
After afew blurry years of bad decisions it appears i have changed and as have the haters. More than i first thought.
They now hate me because i am a model, they tell me to get a real job, say i may as well be a hooker, they hate me because of their jealousy, amongst other things. I am hated for being loud and proud, for being straight to the point with no fucking about. People nowadays (especially where i live) are two faced, small minded, closed off to new and strange trends/things/ways of life. Incapable of really changing, all they do is find new things to hate.
I used to act like i had an invisible shield up all the time, but that grated down, i was worn down and depressed eventually.
It is so much easier now to just talk over things with someone i trust, and i advise everyone who gets a lot of hate to do the same.
Even if its just to laugh about it, joke about it, or get their reassurance that what their saying doesn't mean anything, whatever it is you need always go for support if it is available.
If not, don't hate back, send back smiley faces and laughing emoticons etc; even if it has bothered you act the opposite like what they said just makes you laugh.
They will get bored eventually, all haters, all bullies do.
They will move on!
As will we!
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