This week @MISSY @RAMBO @LYXZEN and @CHARMAINE ask us: If you could go back in time and change one thing from your past what would it be?
- I would change, the way i behaved at school. I wasn't myself. I played up to the crowds to the laughs, i tried to get the bullies on my side instead of standing up for myself I let them torment me, i even tormented myself in a way by allowing it and going along with it all the while hating myself for it. Not to mention all the decisions i made at school because i just 'wanted friends' 'wanted to be liked' 'wanted to be cool' well, none of that has helped me now and doubt those decisions will ever help me but they atleast helped me realise that when I have children, i should teach them to look after themselves, stand up for themselves and be happy in their own body, their own mind knowing they're amazing just the way they are
I was always matched up to my clever older sister, she's my idol my star my big sis but still, i was never as good as her and though my folks would never admit they compared us they truly did. I hated feeling like I had to match up to her, match up to idiots at school that walked all over me and bullied me for years
I would only change the person i was to become a better me now. But, in all honesty i say this and if i had the chance to do it over, i may end up making the same choices because they made me who I am today.
I am like marmite, always will be. I am a good person and atleast I have learnt from my mistakes.
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