Admittedly a full fortnight late.
Still, i have learnt a lot in 13 days (thus far, always learning)
1. Focus on learning to not be the same me I was at the weekend, which wasn't me. I think after a hectic relationship, being carted out my home Christmas Eve and trying to get through with a bad back and letting my anxiety get the better of me I fucked up.
I upset people i started to care about, i was disrespectful and far too honest for my own good.
I need to focus on holding back on some things, and giving other things my complete effort. I am a good person I just need to control my anxiety and, control the ratchet bitch that lives deep inside me haha
2. Learn to put myself first more often, i have enough of my own problems yet i always like to know other peoples and try to help, i never take my own advice and I know if i did give myself advice and follow it more often than not I would be a happier person for it.
3. Focus on passing college and becoming a qualified Beauty Therapist, everyone needs a fallback career and after realising I am actually really good at a lot of it I see no reason why I should not be putting college above relationships and push myself to sit in doing practical and written work, choose to not smoke and not waste my evenings and get my shit together.
4. Make some more true friends, even pen pals. Used to have a few and i loved them they were awesome but that was younger, lost touch as we grew up. I would love to have some friends abroad that i could get to know and perhaps meet one day.
5. Learn to take better selfies, honestly I am the shittest
6. Stop breaking things, become less clumsy and learn to keep HOLD of my god dam phone for longer than a day!
7. Stop thinking that just because afew people don't like you, everyone doesn't. The cup truly is half full and if i keep thinking that way it'll keep filling up.
8. Get back into music, make some music of my own, work with my dubstep friends Seifer & Surgical (signed to Hospitality records they're awesome, everyone check them out on soundcloud and iTunes)
9. Go somewhere on my own out of the country, thinking Paris/Versailles basically France.
10. Go to pole perfect/pole dancing/excercise lessons, always wanted to and never had the confidence but fuck it i can do it i just have to go and keep feeling as determined as i do now.
11. Start giving back to my parents and my sister who is just my idol and i love her! as much as we do not get on (my parents) they have always had my back, covered my ass and even though they made a lot of decisions they probably shouldn't have in my past, they always had my best interests at heart and to be honest they have bailed me out of too many things in my life. They're my only family. Blood is thicker than water as they say.
12. Quit weed, like seriously. I cannot be a stoner my whole life i do not live in America and cannot have Medical Marijuana so i am just smoking head fucking, shitty skunk.
13. Eat healthier, everytime i go out for a meal i will eat salad i will eat healthy food (ish) so i need to atleast start eating breakfast and dinner everyday because going days without eating then binge eating on junk food is seriously messing up my immune system. Nobody got time fo'dat! I don't necessarily want to lose weight just tone up!
14. Speak to my brother
15. Forgive and forget the things that will stop me having a better future
16. Go gym with my friend Jess as much as i can without fucking my back up more.
17. Make amends with people who have begrudged me for different reasons
18. Keep improving, change is good
