kellenthirteen

I'm scared...i have this opportunity to open myself up to the possibility of really, truly being happy and all i'm fealing is fear...i've never been the closed off type, but i'm finding myself realizing that my biggest fear is to, once again, be expendable to somebody...feeling expendable is the worst hurt i've ever known...i can't shake the feeling that i can spend such a significant amount of time with someone, share so much of my life and become a large part of theirs, and it doesn't matter...they never end up caring about me at all...they so easily discard me from their lives as if i was never a part of it at all. it's made me build walls i never had before...and it's sad...and i resent it...and i'm hurting.