kelland

"Today" format stolen from Nonchalance, a super cool and super sexy fellow.

Today:

I feel...
A. headachey
B. stressed
C. unshowered

I have...
A. only eaten one meal today
B. creased red eyelids
C. a huge spider on my basement floor

I will...
A. defeat tomorrow
B. sleep well tonight
C. leave as quickly as I came in

Look kids, I'm a dork... just like you!



I am obsessed with this song crushjunkie included on a CD he sent me. It's called "Stranger" and it's by Booth and the Bad Angel. If you have a slight curiosity as to what it sounds like, I highly suggest you download it.

Love strikes without a warning... I've lost control. My life's freefalling into new worlds. Born free, the jail is waiting. I hold the key. Freedom's not easy when the jailer is me. I'm the stranger who fell through time. I'm a stranger to these new highs. I'm a stranger to my old life.

Does someone around here want to burn me an Elliott Smith mix? I would happily burn you something in exchange. Leave a comment and let me know.

My heart is small. I cannot fully surrender myself to your needs. I want to reach out, reach out beyond the distance my body will allow, beyond the capacity of my capabilities. I want to ignore your actions through a forced smile while brushing away the neglect. My strength is limited. I cannot successfully compete against your flaunty moves. I want to combat this, combat until my flesh breaks down and melts away, until my breath falls radically short. I want to plow through your wasteland with sturdy feet and erase the tarnished slate. And start over for the last time.

Sometimes I look at my bed and think, "How much of my life have I spent sleeping? Sleeping away sickness, sleeping away grief, sleeping away exhaustion, sleeping away boredom... sleeping to forget, sleeping to remember..." How much of my life has been spent in dormancy? I consider that maybe I don't want to know the answer.