Sometimes I am bursting at the seams. It seems.
Sometimes I tease my hair high and paint my eyes blue. Drown my brain in glue to ignore everything I knew.
Sometimes I wish this pocket of lint was a pocket of lead. I'd walk on dirty glass. I'd walk 'till I was dead.
Sometimes I'll shut up and sit and be still. Eat this plate, chew this pill. Carve you out until I'm ill.
Sometimes.
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It's been over a week since I last documented my life happenings. I'm somewhat sad to report that I don't have much.
This past week I worked twenty-seven hours.
Thursday was DECA and my teammate Andi and I received first place in our category despite our humble efforts. Kevin sat by me on the bus and cuddled me the entire day. I miss him. We took pictures together. It was just like nothing ever went awry. It was like he was my best friend all over again, and even if it wasn't sincere, and even if it was only momentary, it was nice. I also went to the doctor for my headaches on Thursday. He was nice/strange and completely convinced that my body weight is too low (he figured my body mass index at 19). He concluded that I am undernourished. I don't really agree, but I suppose a medical opinion overrides my... non-medical opinion. So basically I am eating more often and avoiding foods with MSG (he mentioned that I might have an allergy to MSG that might be triggering my headaches). I have to get blood work done soon, and I should probably start taking magnesium and vitamin B12 as he suggested.
I went to Damein's show on Friday night with Shannon and my friend Kayleigh. That was fun. I love Damein. 'Nuff said.
Saturday morning Shannon and I went to look at potential new places of residence with our parentals. We all fell in-love with one house in particular, but I'm afraid to give my hopes up because my parents don't seem to be taking any action as far as getting a new home. My dad still doesn't have a job. They aren't even trying to pack anything up around here. It's like they dream of progress but prefer stagnancy.
Also on Saturday Shannon and I bought tickets for Black Rebel Motorcycle Club (this Friday at the Newport in Columbus!) with Damein. Then we went to the mall. Then we had Taco Bell. Then I went to work for six hours and ended up seeing/talking briefly with Miah, who stumbled in from the blustery snow and was immediately handed a White Russian. He looked normal. He didn't look like someone who was stuck in his apartment for the past two weeks, completely isolated, snorting coke, playing video games, watching TV. But that's probably closer to the truth than something more positive, more favorable. Oh. I need to stop thinking of that bleak situation. There is nothing I can do. It wears me out.
The Bends by Radiohead is currently my favorite album.
I will add to this entry later. The addition will be comical pictures from DECA and Damein's show. I'm too tired/lazy right now. G'night.
Sometimes I tease my hair high and paint my eyes blue. Drown my brain in glue to ignore everything I knew.
Sometimes I wish this pocket of lint was a pocket of lead. I'd walk on dirty glass. I'd walk 'till I was dead.
Sometimes I'll shut up and sit and be still. Eat this plate, chew this pill. Carve you out until I'm ill.
Sometimes.
+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
It's been over a week since I last documented my life happenings. I'm somewhat sad to report that I don't have much.
This past week I worked twenty-seven hours.
Thursday was DECA and my teammate Andi and I received first place in our category despite our humble efforts. Kevin sat by me on the bus and cuddled me the entire day. I miss him. We took pictures together. It was just like nothing ever went awry. It was like he was my best friend all over again, and even if it wasn't sincere, and even if it was only momentary, it was nice. I also went to the doctor for my headaches on Thursday. He was nice/strange and completely convinced that my body weight is too low (he figured my body mass index at 19). He concluded that I am undernourished. I don't really agree, but I suppose a medical opinion overrides my... non-medical opinion. So basically I am eating more often and avoiding foods with MSG (he mentioned that I might have an allergy to MSG that might be triggering my headaches). I have to get blood work done soon, and I should probably start taking magnesium and vitamin B12 as he suggested.
I went to Damein's show on Friday night with Shannon and my friend Kayleigh. That was fun. I love Damein. 'Nuff said.
Saturday morning Shannon and I went to look at potential new places of residence with our parentals. We all fell in-love with one house in particular, but I'm afraid to give my hopes up because my parents don't seem to be taking any action as far as getting a new home. My dad still doesn't have a job. They aren't even trying to pack anything up around here. It's like they dream of progress but prefer stagnancy.
Also on Saturday Shannon and I bought tickets for Black Rebel Motorcycle Club (this Friday at the Newport in Columbus!) with Damein. Then we went to the mall. Then we had Taco Bell. Then I went to work for six hours and ended up seeing/talking briefly with Miah, who stumbled in from the blustery snow and was immediately handed a White Russian. He looked normal. He didn't look like someone who was stuck in his apartment for the past two weeks, completely isolated, snorting coke, playing video games, watching TV. But that's probably closer to the truth than something more positive, more favorable. Oh. I need to stop thinking of that bleak situation. There is nothing I can do. It wears me out.
The Bends by Radiohead is currently my favorite album.
I will add to this entry later. The addition will be comical pictures from DECA and Damein's show. I'm too tired/lazy right now. G'night.
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crushjunkie:
They are a perfect band to be obsessed with, if you are strange like I am. 
beatnik:
kelland rules