kekelyn

I want to thank everyone for such kind words over the past couple days about Smokey. it really hit me hard because it was so sudden; we'd been saying for over a year now if she kept getting worse behaviour/mentally we'd put her down.. so i got used to the not following through with it. this time it actually happened. i'm still having difficulty getting over her face moments before being euthanized. She was only 3 years old; but we gave her a good life.. much better than what she had had out in -20 weather as a feral kitten when we found her.

I'm currently working on a sketch of my memorial tattoo for her now. It is cute. When I find an artist, I'm going to get them to expand more on it, etc. As my skills are only basic; and I can't seem to capture her eyes..so they may have better luck.

It's currently madly pouring out and storming. It'd be nice if they updated the weather website.. as they said rotation was spotted about 30 minutes north of me and was heading this way. They haven't updated in an hour and a bit now.... they are getting really bad at doing that lately. Our front ditch is filling up with water.

Got in a fight with Mum today. Since I'm the only one living here with her now I get the brunt of ALL her frustrations of Dad being gone and now smokey being put down. She's said some rather hurtful things today. I was ready to punch her in the face.

I'm a bit worried for my Dad. He's getting required to go through a native reserve up north near Pickle Lake; where it is hostile and a threat of being killed. They told him to not stop the car in any situation; and if some reason the car dies.. your dead. And if the natives crowd the car; to run them over and then get out of there and tell the police and they will go take care of it. Why my Dad is not REFUSING this is unknown to me. Because you have every right do you not, to refuse an aspect of your job that is unsafe?? So lets hope the our old shitty van that he's using doesn't break down.. or I lose yet another family member. EDIT: APPARENTLY IT HASN'T BEEN THAT BAD IN A DECADE OR SO, BUT IT IS STILL BORDERLINE TENSION UP THERE

I'm supposed to be dropping my car off right now at the body shop, but because I can barely see out my window from the rain..I'm not going anywhere. I will probably get pushed back again because of the weather. which means i could have made plans today again.