keegan

As many of you already know, my boi and I have not been getting along as well as I would have hoped. I finally initiate a "talk" (you know the one) which ended in us deciding to take an extended break from living together. I am currently packing up all of my stuff to move in with my ex gf/best friend....it feels really strange. I am really fucked up about it all...I'm trying my best to keep things together....I don't want to move out but I know that things aren't going to get any better while living under the same roof....we are trying to be proactive about it and get some space before we can't stand each other or ourselves for allowing our relationship to slowly end.

The worst part is that I was really starting to feel better (sadness-wise) when my boi went all emo....it's all fucked up....I'm trying to be strong and be there for him as he has in the past for me but my heart is so heavy at the prospect of not coming home to him at night. I really don't know what to do with myself....I alternate between packing really slow so that I can stay a little longer and packing really fast so that I can just get to Holly's place and cry where no one will see me.

I can already tell this is not going to be an easy transition.