kd0083

i had a terrible dream today. its the second one i have had this month well the first was more of a horrific flashback of something in my past. this one was just as bad. i was helping a female friend of mine. i always help her when she needs it. but something was a little off. she turns to me and says "you have outlived your usefulness". " what are you talking about?" i asked. she then replies "what can i do with you?" . she then steps away from me and turns her back on me. she walks away and says " i can have alot more fun with someone else" then throws a gun down at my feet. "don't waste the air that someone else could be breathing, hurry up and blow your brains out". i fall to my knees in a state of shock. she then walks up to me grabs the gun of the ground and points it towards my heart. she smiles again and pulls the trigger. thats when i woke up. i had a very sharp pain in my chest. i was so freaked out i couldn't go back to sleep. the bizarre thing is i had a simliar dream 2 years ago except i was stabbed instead of shot. i have been pretty depressed all day cause of that dream. i thought about it all day. in a way parts of it seems to define the way my life is and at the same time predict the future. maybe i have outlived my usefulness. i really don't feel like sleeping. i figured if i atleast wrote about it would leave my mind. i forgot what it was called ,but its so supposed to be therupetic(?). i just hope it stays a dream