kd0083

its been a rough weekend. i couldn't sleep friday night, a mishap with some meds force me to stay awake all night and most off the day.if i would have fallen asleep i could have been in some real trouble.so i stayed up replaying GTA:vice city for most of the night.finally after i say about near 19 hours i went to a friends place and fell asleep on their couch.i came home later saturday night and collapse on my bed.i lay there in total darkness listening to my heart beat.for some reason i felt really crushed. i really don't know why i felt that way. at that moment i wished i had someone near me. but there wasn't. ibeing alone at night never bothered me before so the feeling was a new experiance. i woke up this morning upside-down in my bed. i don't remember getting in my bed.i felt like staying in bed all day. a verse from a song perfectly described my feeling at that moment.

"take me to another place,take me to another land , make me forget all that hurts me, let me understand your plan."

but finally i manage to pull myself together and out of bed. git some things to get out and do.a couple minutes on the ounching bag helped a little. now i just got to manage to get in the shower and throw clothes on and turn off BUCK-TICK.