the last 2 years of my life have been pretty much the most definitive years I'll ever have.
I've learned so much in the past years, about me and about others that I really feel I am who I needed to become to thrive.
As a Libra I belive greatly in balance. Do unto to others...yada yada, you know the rest. I have been through so much in my life, That there were 2 ways of dealing with it; surcomb to anger and hold a grudge my whole life only adding to the bad energy i have recieved in life or turn that pain to strength and learn from it. That's how I approach everything now and it's an amzing outlook.
I learned a lot about love. You ever meet someone that makes you constantly wanna pick up and go places? A person that makes you wanna throw away your tv and buy stacks of coloring books together? The kind of person whom just makes you wanna live life and not sweat the BS? I met that person...She probably thinks I wouldnt admit it but after a long time of thinking about MY situation I've come to realize that, I was the one that was scared. I took the relationship for granted and treated her not as good as she deserved. I made excuses for reasons why this happened, but truly I was just scared. Scared because I knew what was possible for the relationship but didn't think i was ready for that. We got caught up with money and work and never took the time we needed. Now I am at a point in my life where that's what i want to do. Take the time, enjoy life. I have matured greatly because of this. Tho it's too late for any fixing I feel that this was very important for me to realize, and am very thankful she is still a part of my life.
I'm bummed...My friends are leaving. Sleazy is leaving me and moving far away. My frined nick is moving farther north and I'm moving south. It's really shitty realising I'm not gunna see these guys as much anymore. I don't have many friends, but the one's I do have mean the world to me. So we'll see how that all works out.
As far as me moving south, I can't wait to be back on my own again. I'll be moving back to the san jose area after a much needed vacation.
That's about it from me...I'll b at warped in shoreline august, anyone else goin?
I've learned so much in the past years, about me and about others that I really feel I am who I needed to become to thrive.
As a Libra I belive greatly in balance. Do unto to others...yada yada, you know the rest. I have been through so much in my life, That there were 2 ways of dealing with it; surcomb to anger and hold a grudge my whole life only adding to the bad energy i have recieved in life or turn that pain to strength and learn from it. That's how I approach everything now and it's an amzing outlook.
I learned a lot about love. You ever meet someone that makes you constantly wanna pick up and go places? A person that makes you wanna throw away your tv and buy stacks of coloring books together? The kind of person whom just makes you wanna live life and not sweat the BS? I met that person...She probably thinks I wouldnt admit it but after a long time of thinking about MY situation I've come to realize that, I was the one that was scared. I took the relationship for granted and treated her not as good as she deserved. I made excuses for reasons why this happened, but truly I was just scared. Scared because I knew what was possible for the relationship but didn't think i was ready for that. We got caught up with money and work and never took the time we needed. Now I am at a point in my life where that's what i want to do. Take the time, enjoy life. I have matured greatly because of this. Tho it's too late for any fixing I feel that this was very important for me to realize, and am very thankful she is still a part of my life.
I'm bummed...My friends are leaving. Sleazy is leaving me and moving far away. My frined nick is moving farther north and I'm moving south. It's really shitty realising I'm not gunna see these guys as much anymore. I don't have many friends, but the one's I do have mean the world to me. So we'll see how that all works out.
As far as me moving south, I can't wait to be back on my own again. I'll be moving back to the san jose area after a much needed vacation.
That's about it from me...I'll b at warped in shoreline august, anyone else goin?
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kirby:
i miss you butthead. . .look what i found :]
siouxsie:
i'll be at warped tour working the peta2 booth! come say hi to me..or hang out with me.. 