This is honestly something I really struggle with and I think a lot of it has to do with my fear of failure. I mean, I wanted to do this from when I was about 16 and it took until I was 29 to have the balls to get a set out into the world because I didn’t think I’d be good enough.
The other struggle is now that I got my ‘end goal’ at the end of last year which is a blessing and a curse really. I’d only been modelling a year and a half before getting a message to shoot for Skin Deep. I thought I’d need to work my arse off for years so really wasn’t expecting it! Now I’m like...where do I go from here? What do I do now? I hadn’t planned further because I thought it was so far away haha. I am eternally grateful though because I finally felt like I’d accomplished something in my 20’s and honestly, it’s made my life!
I feel like now is more than just new year resolutions. It’s my first full year in my 30’s so what do I want from these years?
I’ll start with this year though before I blow my own mind and get anxious
1 - try and arrange shoots with my goal photographers. Dying to work with @darkmoonmedia , creative instincts, creative lounge home studio and Laura donohoe. I don’t expect to get shoots with all of them but I’d like maybe 2 or something.
2 - put enough money aside to be able to fly out to the SG house and maybe shoot a few sets there. Even if the sets don’t happen, just being able to stay and meet people I wouldn’t normally get a chance to meet would be amazing! That was one of my fave things about the shoot fest last year with models coming over from Australia, America etc.
3 - finish the projects I’ve already started. I have such a weird relationship with finishing things. Like, I love seeing everything completed and how awesome it looks but again, I have the ‘what do I do now’ thing afterwards.
4 - just be better with money in general. I’m very aware I have a bit of an addiction to buying new things so I need to find a way of replacing that with something better that isn’t making me live pay check to pay check. I’m hoping the LA goal will help with this and also resolution 5....
5 - finish my right arm. I already have my hand booked in next month and potentially getting the space at the top filled soon too! Then it’s just my weird lower arm space left but I wanted to see what was left after my hand and upper arm were done before planning what to do with it. I wanted to give those 2 maximum space options
6 - I need to make more effort to see people and also meet some of my online friends that I’m yet to see. I met a few last year and it was such a good decision haha
I guess the final thing isn’t really a resolution because it’s not something I have ANY control over. I would love to go pink....but then doesn’t every hopeful?
if you got to this point without getting bored, well done and thank you 😹 I need everyone to hold me accountable for all these things now I’ve put them out into the world haha
@sean @missy @eirenne @rambo
