kav

god. it's so beautiful.

the shapes and structures our catastrophes cause - the great letdowns, the commotion we slow down to watch. have you ever seen such an explosion of words and fists? such a wreck, a train wreck of glamor and hatred. mental disease (get it? get it? dis-ease) spread across your families by distrust and propaganda. bad news is far better than good news. what else would we talk about? what else would we watch? ARE YOU SLEEPING?? our whole lives are a reality TV show, you can turn off your set - just peek over your neighbor's fence and watch him drink himself to death. peer through the crack of your child's door and gaze upon him falling for his very first heartbreak, her very first sign of an eating disorder.

it's amazing. it's fucking amazing.

we are so perfect in our imperfections. one person's fault is a chance for another to shine. and the next person glows brighter, and the next is blinding, and the next is searingly luminescent until we can't see beyond them, and our blood curdles into envy and jealousy until ON THE INSIDE we're hunched and broken and ugly, ugly as your Catholic mother's idea of the worst mortal sin.

humans - a virus. a cascading railway of uncountable emotion, eating away at us until we're nothing but what we hate in others. incredible.