katieokiedokie

Woke up today with a headache.. that sucks! So I decided to check my sugar.. lol..it was like 45 which is way too low! Good thing I checked it! So today I feel blah.. mostly tired, and light headed.. I wish I wouldn't let that happen! It's all in my control ya know? I just have to eat.. not watch what I eat..but actually eat. lol..I just recieved an e-mail from a friend and I guess I'm moving to north Dayton??? That's news to me but OK! lol.. I wish! That would be nice! I don't know where she heard that from?? Don't you love how things get all messed up.. it's great. First I need a job..then I'll think about moving out! Which I'm going to do today..look for a job after I eat! Even though I should probably stay off the road..Lets hope I find one..a good one! That pays a lot of money..and is fun to work at..lol... OK WHATEVER! Well I'm going to go! I think I might go to Toledo this weekend but not sure..at least for Friday night! Just to get away! Cause I'd like that! Not sure though because of money, and the fact that gas is so much..and I don't have a job..I feel like a mooch having to borrow money from my parents..of course I would have money in the bank today if I didn't give..not loan..give my dad 1500 dollars the other day to pay off credit cards (guys those things are bad if you misuse them.. be smart..don't be dumb like my dad!) Now I have no money! Get this he's riding me to get a job.. I'm a little pissed because I saved my ass off this past summer so I could have some money to help with my bills that's going out while in school (I am smart about things.. I may not have had a job, but I prepared for months in advance..I should have been OK without a job for like two years.. I'm pretty thrifty..) but now almost all that is gone! I don't really have that much anymore and was hoping to be OK for a little while longer! It sucks! I wanted my main focus to be school..and hell it's been able to be, so now I'm out to look for a job..which is OK...it's summer and I won't be in school.. however I don't want it to be just a summer job..cause I'm ready for a paycheck again..and let the money that's in the bank be a back up plan! I just don't want to hear shit from my dad because he doesn't have any room to talk when it comes to money.. he's awful at saving it! OK..I vented some bye



Oh God.. I just want to hold a baby right now.. I don't know why..but I do..I want to hold a cute little baby boy, wearing all blue and just sit and watch him sleep... a little new born baby.. like a day, or week old.. this sounds so crazy!