My life right now just feels so out of wack.....there is no better way for me to explain that. I am gonna list reasons why and explain I really just need to get this out
1. Me and my husband as of late have been distant with each other. It hasnt been one of us it has been both. And it may sound stupid but he is my other half and what makes me whole and not having him there for me like I usually do is really starting to fuck with me. Because Of this I am extra bitchy and insecure and I just want things to be fixed and better so I can feel better. We talked about it last night and had a huge arguement. And things were some what resolved at the end. Well they were resolved but we just have to see how things go from now on that is the true test. I mean We did have make up sex....which was great( i know TMI) But I just pray that things get better. I need him in my life.
2. Me and my sister arent getting along. I hang out and get along bettter with my sister-in-law (brothers wife) I honestly feel like she is more of a sister to me and there for me more.But my sister everytime I talk to her is short with me and just sounds fed up. and i fully understand that she is going through some stuff right now but I will be there for her and she cant do the same for me. I just feel like she walks all over me and she takes advantage of me being nice. She really hurt my feelings the other day and I am just to the point now that I am done until she fixes her attitude towards me. I feel horrible being like that but I cant keep putting myself through it. I just hope she comes around some time soon
3. I am getting to the point at my job that I feel done. And this is not cause I dont like my job. I love what I do, it is cause my team leader is a total and utter BITCH!!!!!!!!!!! I mean there are so many things (rumors) I have heard about her not training me well enough for my job cause she doesnt like me,but when I say i dont think i was trained well enough they throw that they dont want to hear that from me anymore. but she is the one going around blabbing it to people. Let me give you back story. Me and her went to high school together and for some reason she hated me in high school she honestly never gave me the chance to get to know me and I think it was cause I was friends with her ex best friend after they had a fall out and since then she just hates me and she doesnt honestly know me. So she has made my job hell and she is constantlly pulling me in the office telling me I am not doing a good job(she held the job I have before me) and that I need to step up and do i think that my job is to hard and overwhelming . but then on the other side of it I am told by other coworkers that my area looks great and that it looks better then when she maintained it. So I just think that she has it out for me and I think she is trying to get me to quit or get fired. I have been thinking about looking for another job but with the economy how it is that is kinda hard. I just think when I go back to work next week I am gonna work my ass off and do things that are expected of me and honestly then see what she has to say and if she has to say the same thing I am going to the HR lady about her. I am finished with her bullshit I have decided . The thing is I have said this before and then she started being nice to me so I just forgot about it. I am done with that......I hate her and wish she would of never got the team lead position for my area of the store...........sorry for the rant but I honestly feel better now...kinda
other then that I really dont know why else I feel out of wack as of lately
one thing I do know is I was diagnosed with having anxiety and have not had a chance to get put on any meds and that has been really fucking me up lately.....the other night all my nerves in my body were just going haywire and i felt like I couldnt breathe and it is just all the stress I am under,. I feel like I could cry over anything right now.ahhhh i just want things back to normal.....
well I guess I am off to check emails and then I gotta hop in the shower everyone have a good weekend and I leave you with a hilarious LOL Cat!
1. Me and my husband as of late have been distant with each other. It hasnt been one of us it has been both. And it may sound stupid but he is my other half and what makes me whole and not having him there for me like I usually do is really starting to fuck with me. Because Of this I am extra bitchy and insecure and I just want things to be fixed and better so I can feel better. We talked about it last night and had a huge arguement. And things were some what resolved at the end. Well they were resolved but we just have to see how things go from now on that is the true test. I mean We did have make up sex....which was great( i know TMI) But I just pray that things get better. I need him in my life.
2. Me and my sister arent getting along. I hang out and get along bettter with my sister-in-law (brothers wife) I honestly feel like she is more of a sister to me and there for me more.But my sister everytime I talk to her is short with me and just sounds fed up. and i fully understand that she is going through some stuff right now but I will be there for her and she cant do the same for me. I just feel like she walks all over me and she takes advantage of me being nice. She really hurt my feelings the other day and I am just to the point now that I am done until she fixes her attitude towards me. I feel horrible being like that but I cant keep putting myself through it. I just hope she comes around some time soon
3. I am getting to the point at my job that I feel done. And this is not cause I dont like my job. I love what I do, it is cause my team leader is a total and utter BITCH!!!!!!!!!!! I mean there are so many things (rumors) I have heard about her not training me well enough for my job cause she doesnt like me,but when I say i dont think i was trained well enough they throw that they dont want to hear that from me anymore. but she is the one going around blabbing it to people. Let me give you back story. Me and her went to high school together and for some reason she hated me in high school she honestly never gave me the chance to get to know me and I think it was cause I was friends with her ex best friend after they had a fall out and since then she just hates me and she doesnt honestly know me. So she has made my job hell and she is constantlly pulling me in the office telling me I am not doing a good job(she held the job I have before me) and that I need to step up and do i think that my job is to hard and overwhelming . but then on the other side of it I am told by other coworkers that my area looks great and that it looks better then when she maintained it. So I just think that she has it out for me and I think she is trying to get me to quit or get fired. I have been thinking about looking for another job but with the economy how it is that is kinda hard. I just think when I go back to work next week I am gonna work my ass off and do things that are expected of me and honestly then see what she has to say and if she has to say the same thing I am going to the HR lady about her. I am finished with her bullshit I have decided . The thing is I have said this before and then she started being nice to me so I just forgot about it. I am done with that......I hate her and wish she would of never got the team lead position for my area of the store...........sorry for the rant but I honestly feel better now...kinda
other then that I really dont know why else I feel out of wack as of lately
one thing I do know is I was diagnosed with having anxiety and have not had a chance to get put on any meds and that has been really fucking me up lately.....the other night all my nerves in my body were just going haywire and i felt like I couldnt breathe and it is just all the stress I am under,. I feel like I could cry over anything right now.ahhhh i just want things back to normal.....
well I guess I am off to check emails and then I gotta hop in the shower everyone have a good weekend and I leave you with a hilarious LOL Cat!
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I hope you and your sister can work things out.
Well at least you like your job, I dont like my job and I hate the people who run the place, to bad that your manager is a bitch, I hope this week things change.
Maybe the meds will help you out a lot, I hope they work for you.
HAHAHAHA that is a funny one.
i know how you feel
although maybe not for the same reasons
as hard as it is and as corny as it sounds
just try and keep positive
hope is what helps us get by