katiebarthedoor

i got in from work late last night, but i just woke up for a second.
it's like 7 am. it's nice.
i went into my livingroom and flung open the curtains to the bay window, made some coffee and pulled up a chair.
it's cold, so i turned the AC down.
then i just looked outside.
all those busy bees driving down the street. off to work at law offices, fast food places, hospitals, movie theaters....

why am i sitting here? i should be out there with them.
thats how it always seems, dosent it? like you should be more apart of the world than you are.
it's only two gears. either i dont care, or i'm worried how normal caring so little is and if i'm the only one.

but still, you should see their blank expressions. driving. drone. they are so complacent. i kind of envy them. they almost look happy. maybe they really are.
and i'm in here.

okay, this is weird.
i havent been getting enough TV lately and its making my brain wake up. that's what it must be.
i'm gonna get high and play videogames right now before anymore damage is done.

also, i have been collecting the bags out of the boxes of wine (it's a class act where i work, lemme tell you) we finnish at the bar for the last month, so have like 6 of them. i will inflate them and make throw pillows.
(i'm a class act also)

it is now 7:16 am.

keep the faith.