Monday Apr 21, 2003

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i hate my self,
i hate my life.
i don't know what to do and how to do it.
is it any way out of this fucking madness
exept killing yourself? drugs? maybe? but they wont
help. they just make you forget, for a second. and then you have even more problems, then you've started with. so, drugs is not the solution.
but what is? robot anything?
and its not like i don't enjoy life. i actually like it. sometimes. mostly when i don't think about it.
but as soon i start to think about it, and about the meaning of it all, all i want to do is find my way out.
but i guess its kind of stupid. because all we have is today. you never know, if you going to have tomorrow. not for sure.
so, i guess, i'll just suffer my today, and hopefully i wont have tomorrow.
much love to everybody.
and please have a better view on life, then i do.
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ckrit:
Life was a bitch for me until I realized that there wasn't a grand purpose...because then, I understood that life is what I make of it, that I can be a part of making life what I want it to be, and I can be part of a group of individuals working to make life meaningful on our own terms.

Hang in there, Katia. Make sure you are living life on your own terms; and if you are not, figure out why not, and fix it.
speakvolumes:
There's nothing wrong with a little negativity. But, perspective always seems to help to in life. Obviously you enjoy your life to a certain extent and you have some reservations about some of your actions, that's natural. But your alive, and today many people are not, you might as well enjoy what you have, even if it is minuscule.

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