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Saturday Dec 24, 2005

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Love letter Part 2

_________, My beautiful one,
The only one i ever really loved.
I never wanted anyone more, than you.
In those nightmares, they beat me, and desecrated my very being. All laughed, none tried to save me, The Formless ones stole the innocence from my womb. Helpless... but then the beasts disappeared with the sight of you, And you brought her back. You were my salvation.
When my Master raped me again and again, you were there to wipe the blood,
And Bring me back to life. You smiled over me, and i could breathe again.
I would do anything to have you. I would sacrifice my immortality for you to love me, as i love you.
But i cannot. I have already sacrificed myself once. In that mirror that held the sky. In an act of desperation. The Dark One, who blesses my eyes,
Will not forigve me again. This soul is no longer mine. I am but a cortesan of memories and masks.
THERE IS SUCH SHAME IN IT!
TO LOVE SOMEONE AND KNOW THEY WILL NEVER LOVE YOU ENOUGH! MISERY IS MY MUSE! LOVE IS A DEVIL WHO FEEDS UPON ME! SHAME IS MY MASK! CRUELTY IS MY MASK! JEALOUSY IS THE WHORE WHO LIES IN MY BED EVERY NIGHT!
WHY CAN'T YOU LOOK AT ME!? I AM A REFLECTION OF YOU! I AM ALL THAT YOU MADE ME! EVERYTHING I DID FOR YOU! ALL THESES SCARS I DID FOR YOU! Why can't you love me?


I'm so ashamed of me.
Mara.

darke:
you should be. Devotion in the face of derision is for dogs and sheep. frown
Dec 25, 2005

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