So this last year has been crazy for everyone...
For me, I got the job of my dreams, and started a new diet. Back in November of 2020, I was 260lbs, as of this morning, I'm 226. Not just that, I've gotten the courage to decide to do something for me.
Get out of a sexless, emotionless, sometimes cruel and manipulative relationship. With the help of @jadestoner @foxxy and @chantiilanae, I'm finally doing something for ME and learning to stop holding myself back, because of the fear of hurting SOMEONE ELSE'S feelings.
It's a change, and it's a learning process. Countless hours of me crying to them, hurt because of shit he has said or done, and angry at myself for not stepping up and doing something.
I finally said something to him last week, and as I'm crying typing this, I made room in my office for a bed.
I love you all and thank you so much for being there, now I need to clean my face up and log into my systems for work
