I have a splitting headache. i've cried too much and now i'm dehydrated. i know i should drink water.. but fuck i just want the kids asleep and have a few shots. why does life have to have so many fucking bumps?
... there are things i should be grateful for and i am. i have a home, i have clothes, i have food, i have a loving family... and somewhere across the miles are ppl who i think care that i exist. and i have a few talents.. i can draw incredibly well, a real natural. unfortunatlly its fucking almost impossible to really make a living as an artist. some like my writing.. i think it is ok but not enough.
its just the things that i've been struggling with are very difficult. and i've failed. today i failed in something i really cared about and it hurts mostly because its not just me i'm failing.
... there are things i should be grateful for and i am. i have a home, i have clothes, i have food, i have a loving family... and somewhere across the miles are ppl who i think care that i exist. and i have a few talents.. i can draw incredibly well, a real natural. unfortunatlly its fucking almost impossible to really make a living as an artist. some like my writing.. i think it is ok but not enough.
its just the things that i've been struggling with are very difficult. and i've failed. today i failed in something i really cared about and it hurts mostly because its not just me i'm failing.
twitchmc02:
I'm sorry you're down Kash. 
If ya want to talk about it and i understand if ya don't send me an email. Sometimes it's good to vent. 
If ya want to talk about it and i understand if ya don't send me an email. Sometimes it's good to vent. 
funktion: