HAPPY HAPPY JOY JOY UPDATE!! :
Here's something super duper happified: I just went to get my "We Are All On Drugs" fix on AOL (b/c when I go to the =w= site I get waaaaaaay too distracted!!
) Remember how I was all pissed off about them changing it to the retardedly stupidly censored "We Are All In Love"? (oy!! Don't even get me started about how STUPID STUPID STUPID that was!! grrr!!) Anyway, my =w= pals and I sent them this petition w/a trajillion names on it (give or take a few jillion 
) telling them that was FUCKED UP and that CENSORSHIP IS TOTAL BULLSHIT (I'm paraphrasing, of course!!) Anyway, it's totally changed now!! You now have a CHOICE of watching either the stupidly censored or the happily uncensored version...YAY for AOL!!! Don't know for sure that it had anything to do w/our little petition thingy, but who gives a fuck? I'm just happy they changed it!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!! And Rivers is still fucking hotter than hell no matter which version you watch!!! 
Returning you to my mopey blog now.
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My song for the day is "A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes" from Cinderella (not only does it uber-fit the rest of this journal entry, but it comes out on DVD today...Yay!)
Check out the lyrics...They're beautiful...in a sappy, girlie way (which I tend to be every once in a while...I've always been a total sucker for those classic Disney princess films...They make me get all starry-eyed and dreamy (no matter how hard I try to fight it...they keep pulling me back in!! See how be-a-u-ti-ful they are? ***looks up dreamily at the sky,flutters lashes, and dances around in circles twirling her dress around while singing***
"A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true"
::sigh:: I used to believe that whole heartedly...But, at least in this situation, I HAVE to give up my (usually) unwaivering faith in the impossible...It's hard though. And very sad.
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Dreams can be so fucking cruel.
I had the most beautiful dream last night..."Miroku" (the dude I wrote that silly "showing off is my vice" journal entry about) had FINALLY forgiven me...He invited me to his house to hang out and play happy fun video games and shit...All the drama and crap of the past had been forgotten, and he was super smiley and being so kind to me...Just the way he used to be b/f that stupid-ass argument we had...I even got to hug him and rub my cheek against his...He has the softest skin EVER, and I looooove rubbing up against it...kinda like a kitty cat does, y'know? I could FEEL that in my dream...And I was so very happy. ::sigh::
But now I am awake...alone, in my apt. No "Miroku" happiness....It was all just a horrible, torturous dream...A nightmare, really....And the worst kind of nightmare, b/c if you are dreaming about something frightening, then when you wake up you feel relief. But if you're dreaming about something beautiful, then when you wake up you are very disappointed...You want so badly to go back to sleep and capture that happy feeling again...even for a minute...but you can't. It's gone, and you have to go about your mundane day w/out whatever it is you dreamed which made you feel so grateful to be alive...It is heartbreaking.
I miss him. But I really need to get over it. All this sadness I feel can't continue, and it is obvious that he has no intention of ever being my friend again...That hurts my heart so much, b/c in my eyes, he is one of the most beautiful, amazing people in the universe. I will always care about him, even if he always hates me in return.
Be well, everybody...I'll answer comments and shit a little later on (when I'm not quite so sad). Peace.
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"Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives."
-Oscar Wilde, "The Picture of Dorian Gray"
Here's something super duper happified: I just went to get my "We Are All On Drugs" fix on AOL (b/c when I go to the =w= site I get waaaaaaay too distracted!!
) Remember how I was all pissed off about them changing it to the retardedly stupidly censored "We Are All In Love"? (oy!! Don't even get me started about how STUPID STUPID STUPID that was!! grrr!!) Anyway, my =w= pals and I sent them this petition w/a trajillion names on it (give or take a few jillion ) telling them that was FUCKED UP and that CENSORSHIP IS TOTAL BULLSHIT (I'm paraphrasing, of course!!) Anyway, it's totally changed now!! You now have a CHOICE of watching either the stupidly censored or the happily uncensored version...YAY for AOL!!! Don't know for sure that it had anything to do w/our little petition thingy, but who gives a fuck? I'm just happy they changed it!! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!! And Rivers is still fucking hotter than hell no matter which version you watch!!!
Returning you to my mopey blog now.
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My song for the day is "A Dream Is A Wish Your Heart Makes" from Cinderella (not only does it uber-fit the rest of this journal entry, but it comes out on DVD today...Yay!
)
Check out the lyrics...They're beautiful...in a sappy, girlie way (which I tend to be every once in a while
...I've always been a total sucker for those classic Disney princess films...They make me get all starry-eyed and dreamy (no matter how hard I try to fight it...they keep pulling me back in!! See how be-a-u-ti-ful they are? ***looks up dreamily at the sky,flutters lashes, and dances around in circles twirling her dress around while singing***
"A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartaches
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling thru
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
the dream that you wish will come true"
::sigh:: I used to believe that whole heartedly...But, at least in this situation, I HAVE to give up my (usually) unwaivering faith in the impossible...It's hard though. And very sad.
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Dreams can be so fucking cruel.
I had the most beautiful dream last night..."Miroku" (the dude I wrote that silly "showing off is my vice" journal entry about) had FINALLY forgiven me...He invited me to his house to hang out and play happy fun video games and shit...All the drama and crap of the past had been forgotten, and he was super smiley and being so kind to me...Just the way he used to be b/f that stupid-ass argument we had...I even got to hug him and rub my cheek against his...He has the softest skin EVER, and I looooove rubbing up against it...kinda like a kitty cat does, y'know? I could FEEL that in my dream...And I was so very happy. ::sigh::
But now I am awake...alone, in my apt. No "Miroku" happiness....It was all just a horrible, torturous dream...A nightmare, really....And the worst kind of nightmare, b/c if you are dreaming about something frightening, then when you wake up you feel relief. But if you're dreaming about something beautiful, then when you wake up you are very disappointed...You want so badly to go back to sleep and capture that happy feeling again...even for a minute...but you can't. It's gone, and you have to go about your mundane day w/out whatever it is you dreamed which made you feel so grateful to be alive...It is heartbreaking.
I miss him. But I really need to get over it. All this sadness I feel can't continue, and it is obvious that he has no intention of ever being my friend again...That hurts my heart so much, b/c in my eyes, he is one of the most beautiful, amazing people in the universe. I will always care about him, even if he always hates me in return.
Be well, everybody...I'll answer comments and shit a little later on (when I'm not quite so sad). Peace.
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"Whenever a man does a thoroughly stupid thing, it is always from the noblest motives."
-Oscar Wilde, "The Picture of Dorian Gray"
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Indeed. With sais in you hands I'm not inclined to argue with your choice of tactic.