I can't just be happy. I can't just let things go. I live in the past 24/7 these days. I don't want to know what the future holds and for the first time I'm scared shitless about not knowing what to expect. I'm that girl that I have always hated. I'm that girl who I avoid at all costs. I lost my happy ending when the bullet pierced the skin. I'm a wreck. A freight train couldn't have done as much damage as this shit. 
The second thing to remember is no one can truly love you, until you love yourself. Work on being happy with yourself and your surroundings will change to meet that. Trust me, it works.
JIM