karmakicksass

it was also my violent heart that broke

falling through echos, trailing
and me, running, running
i cried and cried and cried.
spirit, go away from me,
leave me alone
i dont want to live in my head anymore.............


i cant remember the times when we walked in gardens amoung whispers of promises of happiness
and when the honeysuckle bloomed, you told me thats when srping was born.
oh how i laughed at that!
but it was me who was walking in front of us;
and you were content to follow


then came automn, and you took me to visit verona, you're old housekeeper.
you showed me which graves were inmportant, and which ones used to belong to slaves.
and how you decorated her grave with her favorite flowers, bluebells.
we walked through the big iron gates hand in hand, side by side.


then came winter, and i was always ill.
it scared me how you never looked at me, only past me.
id cry, "spirit! spirit! help me! im so sad"
but nothing ever came out of my mouth
you drug me to places of horror and made me do things i didnt want to do
i cried and cried and cried.
but when you touched my face, it was dry.
i no longer walked, but you always lead wherever we went.


so spirt, understand when i say, i must be fast!
hence no one knows you exisit
you could be anywhere, anyone
and you have made me no one.
i never saw how the ending, only the music we made,
but you always knew, you devil!
this is why i must do this
ive ran as far as i can
and i know you wont find me, because you never really lisetened.
and when it was done, my soul cried and cried and cried.