Sunday May 16, 2004

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so i went out to banff for the day to get away and cheer my spirits up. kinda worked, but it was so damn dead, i figure everyone must have been watching the stupid game. i took a hike up the tunnel mountain and did some deep soulful thinking. I figured DAMN IT! i have to re-arrange things in my life. i allow stupid things to get me down and i know it shouldn't. i find it so hard to be satisfied with myself, to the point where i get really down. so now i have to find a way to accept who i am in order to not little things get to me. simple i know...but this isn't really easy with me...

anyhow enough of that shit! lets thinkof something happy. i took some pics on the trail that took my interest for some reason, i didn't question it for this is the first step....so i threw them in my pics, because tying to get them up on the journal is fustrating...if anyone can help how work this shit, it would rock!
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harryjohnson:
so i threw them in my pics, because tying to get them up on the journal is fustrating...if anyone can help how work this shit, it would rock!


Is this what you want to do K?

molonel:
What sort of little things are we talking about? Job stress is not a little thing. Feeling like your life is spiraling down the john is not a good thing. Wishing you could find someone who cares about you is not a little thing. If you had a bad day at work, then that's a little thing, but having most of your days be bad days is not a little thing. If you're taking the time to hike out and think deeply, then you've already separated yourself from most of the pack. Do you need to stop ignoring little stuff, or do you need to really take a new direction? That is the point I hit last February. Is there something you've wanted to do that you haven't done? God, this sounds like advice. I'll shut up, now.

The trail pics were beautiful. Lichen and moss. What mountains were those? We have mostly single mountains up in Oregon, rather than long ranges like that.

With regards to your journal entry: I take no offense. I hope you find someone that you don't have to make any excuses for. I'd say something else, but I already gave you enough bullshit advice in the first paragraph.

I spent some time with friends over the weekend. It's hard to explain, but I've finally had to realize that sometimes you reach the end of possibilities with some friends, and demanding more of them is simply ... unwise. I know I'm being vague, but I had epic expectations of friendships that were simply ... okay. There's nothing wrong with okay, either. But sometimes I simply hope for more.

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