kaosmaker666

Well.....where to start??? I just hope I don't come across to emo on this entry? I went to my ex-girlfriends house today and cooked dinner. I made chicken & Tortellini(cheese) with a cream pesto sauce and a pineapple cake for desert. It all came out fantastic.......of course it would since I am a professionally trained chef!!! The cake was so good and moist (I made a glaze out of the pineapple juice and sugar) I bet I could have made a ton of money from pot party!!!
But enough about my culinary skills........my ex is leaving for Texas tomorrow. I don't think I will be seeing her for a long, long time again. I just get that feeling.......there is an emptiness now that can't be filled. I can't quite explain it. I hope the best for her, and hope that she will always remember me........as I will always remember her. I have spent a lot of time talking with her and trying to see her when I can (or when we both have the time I should say).........I hate goodbyes. Now I know why there are so many songs about friends and lovers parting. I guess this song kind of makes more sense to me now.

Caramel
I wish the best for her and I have a feeling things might just work out this time........a part of me hopes she will come home.....I can't lie! But I have always wanted the best for her........even if that isn't me!!! I call it selflessness......she calls it unconditional love. I don't know where I am going with this.......I just know that I am sad.......really sad!!! She always brings out the best in me.......I wish there were more women like her, but I guess she is and will always be special to me!!!