kaos

Guess who is back? Meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... obviously.

For those of you who didn't know... I moved to Iowa for a whopping month. It wasn't as shitty as I had expected. However, the relationship thing didn't work out...

A couple days before Jason and I were leaving for Iowa, I noticed he was texting a lot and he NEVER texts. So, I'm nosey and checked it out... he was texting another chick. I confronted him about it (I won't go into details of it but it was a chick he met while he was working in Texas). He denied anything happening despite the fact that I SAW the messages. So, I got the number and called the girl. Turns out hey had slept together. Well, Jason apologized bla bla bla, and told me it made him realize how much he wanted to be with me. SO... I'm dumb, I moved to Iowa with him. Things were good for a month or so and then I noticed him texting again... this time he was texting a chick that he cheated on his ex with about how they should hook up when we go to Colorado (he moves for work a lot). Fuck that. Our relationship has had it's up's and downs... off and on for 6 years. If after 6 years he can't be faithful to me then I don't need him.

He is still messaging me telling me that he want's to be with me and that he just needs his space. Uh... HELLO?! Really? I mean... I was naieve before but my lesson has been well learned. I have given him so so many chances, and he screwed me over every time. Looked me in the face and lied to me more times than I can count. Ha.

Anywho... I don't want comments about how "I'm sorry to hear that" etc... because no one should be. This is the best thing that could have happened to me. I am back in Seattle, and loving it. I have met some incredible people in the past couple weeks... things are finally going my way.

Also, I would like to announce that I have decided to get my shit in gear and re shoot for SG...

So, look out SG... Kaos is back!
xo