kannon

I wouldn't say that I think lot about death, but today I thought a lot, and I mean A LOT about it. I think it's the combination of a decline in friends and an up in my homicidal insanity research. Yep, I'm guessing that will do it. It's not suicide contemplation, but rather SEEING death. It's not that I'm really ALL that weird, but I've never been one to keep 283920934.3 friends at a time, and now that most of mine haven't been around, I've been caught up in my studies, sleep, and work. I've adjusted to it well but you have to understand that my mind is a relatively dark place, and if I hang out here too long by myself, I WILL start having obsessive, scary thoughts.

I caught a youtube video of a talkshow (can't remember that bitch's name..) sort of like Maury, and they were interviewing individuals "obsessed with serial killers". One of the guys was like I WANNA BE CHARLES MANSON which was pretty creepy, and then another girl was like "yeah I just think they're really interesting". ..and I'm all like oh shit, and America thinks SHE'S weird

I have lots of money compared to usual, and this will be my next tattoo: "it is more cruel to always fear death than to die" under my collarbones