kamikaze_kai

hey society, remember me? i feel like i lost myself between the cracks in the time rift. some dark hole thats swallowed me up into a hesitant state. it seems like i'm being ignored by the masses. i guess that's a first for me and it's a really weird feeling. not that i try and stick out, but that not even when i am "normal" do i get recognized. even those closest. i thought being someones friend meant that they would spend at least a little time with you every now and again. i just feel really lame having to ask everyone and call everyone to do something. take the initiative to be friend, douchebag! oh well, strange thing though. i'm really unhappy about being lonely but its like i never have time to even have a life. not that i could do anything. i cant really pinpoint this right now, its really confusing. i just know that i'm in a weird position in my life for the first time. im on the verge of seriously dating this girl and im really afraid its going to turn out like my last one did. with me even lower in the end. what am i complainingabout? fuck this. i'd rather be angry than confused and i'd rather hate then be a target.
-k-
p.s. i know no ones watching, and even though i want companionship i'd rather drink to the thought of lonliness

we shall shatter these bones in a feeble attempt to become invincible