kamikaze

A strange day today was.
For the last couple of days the gland under the left side of my jaw has been getting bigger and causing me some pain now don't be too concerned I don't look like a lopsided Don Corleone. Today, I was physically exhausted, my throat started hurting this morning and my nose was all tight at the sinuses. I had a tiny 4hr shift 3-7 at the pub, which was rediculously busy. I wasn't hungry which is probably a good thing coz there was no time for a break. I couldn't raise my voice for lack of energy, my head got all tight and I felt very faint and disorientated. I barely made it home, now I only live a five min walk from my place of work but I just wanted to sit down for a rest however I knew I would be there for ages and not want to get back up, keep going and die at the end! Got to my room and made myself semi-naked before falling down on my bed for a sleep. It was 11:15 when I ate for the first time today, thats PM, now I usually can't leave the house unless I've eaten, and I only ate because I new I had to, not being hungry is strange to me, I love my food. I was ment to go out tonight and have a great time before headding to the flatwarming party that was guarenteed to be a blastehhhhhh. Upset I am that I done the wise thing and stayed in bed to watch dvds and read My friends came round to persuade me out, actually one of them very kindly told me I looked like a junkie - nice! I'm perspiring profusely and feel like shit I must be I'll. Thought I'd share that with you, much virusy love mWa