kalynwic

Self realizations:

What I want from life is-
To be healthy, to maintain a unyielding level of self respect, to have some close friends (a family of choice), to overachieve in the career path that I have chosen and to be with that special guy.

What I don't want-
Is to block out or erase my life up to this point or even start fresh. I have zero regrets in life and I am not planning on adding any now. I have experienced life, death, illness, birth and heart break. I am ready to experience it all again...I just want to do things better, smarter this time around.

What I need to work on-
I am an enabler...I always have been. I put others wants and needs before my own, in almost every situation. I'm a masakist in a way except I get pleasure from bringing pleasure to other...even if it's not the best thing for me. I am learning and it is a process, one of the hardest ones yet. But I am recognizing it more and more now and I am ready to stop.

I feel like-
I have turned a corner in my life. I don't know what triggered it but I am ready to embrace it! I feel that everything from here on out will be just fine but history has made me very weary of expecting too much. Not from myself but from others and situations. I don't want to be disappointed but I feel that as long as I stay true to my own expectations that the rest will be easy to swallow.

I am scared of what the future holds but I am most definitely up for the adventure!