bit of a stressful day today. my transmission dyed and I was stuck.. no way to get a new car.. based on no cosigner and my job. My grandfather came down like a prince on a white 96 dodge neon and rescued me.. he wouldnt sign for a cosigner but he bought me a car no questions asked, payed in full with no need to repay. He says the only rule is I use the money i get out of my old car towards my bills and not frivalous things. I have learned adn experienced so much n the past few months. I am looking for a new job in my field.. (I have a degree in environmental science. yes I use to make $25 an hour legally) I am growing and expanding. I would never pull away from my roots cause no matter how weathered... that is why i am me. but.. I feel I am ready for a new step in my life.. I am ready for the part in my life that i was afraid would never come. I have never been this happy and proud of myself. Its like a small epiphany. Not to mention I feel I am falling in love.. I am afraid to rush things.. but I also am afraid not to listen to my heart. I just feel like i fit in my life now. It makes me eyes smile 
Psh on love, in my opinion. But glad it makes you feel good.
anyways, good luck in finding a new career.