Hey @missy @rambo
I will describe myself using 3 fictional characters. For me it's quite easy to choose three:
1- Kylo Ren
He has got a difficult childhood and past. He needed attention of his father but he hadn't, his father was almost an unknown person for him. He had many family problems and he started to hate them for treason. The darkside started to grow on him and after all he feels broken, he just wanted to be loved. He can't control his anger and bad emotions. He founds in Rey some kind of peace. Kylo Ren is for sure the character that describes my past the most.
2- John Marston
He did horrible things in the past, he knows it and he wants to change his life and turn the man he can be. Now he's got a family, he's got a beloved to care about and he wants to make all of them happy, for them and to make up for the hurt he has done, even thought he thinks that maybe it's too late and as he says "no one forgets, nothing gets forgiven". He's looking for his own redemption and he doesn't care about what's his redemption's price. He's angry, impatient, lonely, he doesn't trust in anyone but he's humble and kind afterall and just cares about his family. After Kylo Ren, I became John Marston. That's why I think he's the character that describes me the most right now.
3- Doctor Strange:
He had an experience that changed his life for ever. He lost his career, his friends and the life he had 'till that moment because of that experience. He tried to recover his old life but it was impossible for him and he needed to try another thing. He ran away, he started his alternative life and at first he was skeptical but then he started to understand everything, assumed his new life and becoming a better man than he was before. I fell into my mental illness in 2012 and I lost my friends, I left my studies behind and all the life I had. I ran away from my hometown to a city that was almost 1000 km from there to find something that could save me in someway. At first it was difficult, I have been many years trying to be the girl I was before, but after I assumed my mental illness, step by step I am becoming a Doctor Strange: the best side of me with my good and bad things with lots of difficulties, but not trying to live the life I was hoping for, doing what I think it's the best for me, even tho I will never be the girl I was years ago.
Thank you for reading this one more time and hope you like this post <3