I am so confused. I don't know what I want, or what I love. All I know is that what really matters is that I live only for the love of life. Confusion at its best, I suppose.
In other words, I'm at a midlife crisis at the age of 26. ha! Or is it depression? No, it isn't that. I am at that point in life where I'm standing at a crossroads. I could just sit here, and let life pass me by. Or I could take a left turn, and that might lead to a greater sense of self, laughter, happiness, but at a great loss of friendships and everything I knew. Or I could take the right turn, and forsake happiness and sense of self for a duty to others? I don't know.. I have been brought up to be honorable to others, and even if it means to lose my sense of self. I have another option, which is to stay where I'm at, but that will only delay the inevitable choice. One day I will make a decision, and when I do, I will do it with my whole heart.
In other words, I'm at a midlife crisis at the age of 26. ha! Or is it depression? No, it isn't that. I am at that point in life where I'm standing at a crossroads. I could just sit here, and let life pass me by. Or I could take a left turn, and that might lead to a greater sense of self, laughter, happiness, but at a great loss of friendships and everything I knew. Or I could take the right turn, and forsake happiness and sense of self for a duty to others? I don't know.. I have been brought up to be honorable to others, and even if it means to lose my sense of self. I have another option, which is to stay where I'm at, but that will only delay the inevitable choice. One day I will make a decision, and when I do, I will do it with my whole heart.
It's not a midlife crisis, it's a quarter-life crisis.
Your decision sounds really important though.
If you ever want to talk about it, feel free to talk to me.
Yes, I'm a stranger, but I'm a pretty decent listener.
Always there
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