i think im gonna take sarahjane out to the side of a dark deserted forest road, and leave her there. like an unwanted puppy.

"Why???" you ask in horror. why? because shes the only thing i give a fuck about and the only thing im sad to leave behind to go to boston or manchester or san jose or hawaii or portland or any of the others that ive considered.

honestly sj whyd'ya have to be cool???? cant you just be a bitch or smell funny or something.

dammit.

but the cool thing is, shes already given me her blessing. she has told me to do what is right for me. and whats right, as hard as this is to confront, isnt really what we originally had planned.

and it makes me feel better to know i can always come back.

like i said, my wrists arnt bound....oh yah.

looks like ill be waiting for moments that will never arrive???

oh no....

bonus points to my godcldinsick (i dotn knwo how you spelled it dude...) friend for using millencolin in a comment. double bonus cause hes used tiger army before.

i need to start meeting people in boston too, cause im gonna consider that place. i ve been thinkin about it for a long time. and after seeing street dogs i kinda have this jones for it. i listened to them in the shower.

life is confusing and crazy. and its odd how having someone you care about makes things easier yet harder at the same time. no matter what i do ill be leaving someone i dont want to.

but at least their supportive of me.

anyway....sjs bday is the 14th. buy her stuff.

mine is july 6th...please stop by and say happy bday. i always spend my bdays alone and it breaks my heart. and i spent last xmas day all by myself. fuck that kids.

dont forget to wish me happy bday. and buy sarahjane stuff. and send her lotsa hugs and kisses and baby turtles!!!

k?

mwwwwwwwahhh

and sorry im in a rush ill return all your fabulous comments to your fabulousness later.


oh oh oh and ill have to write later to tell yo about rocky horror and flashing and my fun weekend.

and also, i mailed my set. but i didnt realize no one works the post office on saturday (WTF!!!!) and so i got five stamps out of the stamp vender machine and slapped em on the envelope. im sure that was enough....and on my way out i realized that they had a self use meter mailer thing that tells you exactly how much you need to pay. so im an idiot.

soooooooooooo either i will get a return to sender package soon (grrr..my set) or i will hear from missy the great news of acceptance. (lets not face the depressing alternative that is rejection until we must)

nunga nunga